Sigh...

I think my brother knows the Easter Bunny isn't real..Okay so I kind of understand this one because he even said the idea of a giant bunny hopping around throwing eggs everywhere, kinda doesn't make sense. But this lead to Santa.. Along with the Easter Bunny and Tooth Fairy, he was brought up today. Someone said something bringing up the fact he isn't real while my brother was sitting there. Out of the corner of my eye I could see him just laughing it off and I just couldn't tell if he was trying to be all tough and cool acting like he knew he wasn't real, even though he still did up to that point, or if he actually knew before that. It made me a little said, I know he's in fourth grade and probably knows by now, but I was still holding onto the fact that maybe he didn't yet.. It's just one of those childhood things that I wish lasted forever. I remember when I finally had to admit Santa wasn't real.. I had been resisting the truth about it for quite awhile. Deep down I knew the truth, but i wanted to hold onto it as long as possible. But one year my mom or sister said "you know that Santa isn't real, right?" And that was it. Of course I said yes, but I felt a part of me tear a little. It actually had to be true now..A sigh shook through my body, I couldn't pretend anymore. I guess it has to happen sometimes and now it's over for my brother too, although I suppose it probably has been for a while. He came up with a plan a few years ago to test Santa and see if he was real. He insisted not to tell my mom in case she was the real Santa. A very clever boy he is. I'm not sure if it ever worked, I suppose I may never know. Sigh.. It's always bound to happen sometime, my mom did warn me if Logan didn't know this past year would probably be his last. But I suppose I can always pretend in my mind.. :)