What a day it will be when I can run into the arms of my Savior!

Isn't it funny how some people can get so caught up in the world..I won't lie it happens to me too, but if you think about it, it's pretty ridiculous. What does the world really have to offer us, a few dollars? which we all know will just cause stress whether we have any or not. All these..objects. Given to us by God, but idolized too far to the point of destruction. Tearing people apart limb by limb, little by little, until they feel they have nothing left to give. All they have left to do is give up and call it quits. It breaks my heart to think of these people and for them to not know what they're missing! A crazy, everlasting, heart-pounding love. A love you can't find in those "Special Friends", husbands, wives, even your family. A love filled with forgiveness, no matter how badly you screwed up this time. The Love I'm talking about only comes from the true Lover. He wants this intimate relationship with you, but because we can't physically see God as we see people, it is so much easier to give that love to something/someone else. And you may be going "yeah, yeah I've heard this whole thing before. I tried talking to God, but got nothing back.."
And I could keep trying to convince you that the whole time you were talking, God was answering, but you just weren't listening. He was just doing it in ways you weren't expecting. And man, I've had such a hard time with this myself! You can't imagine how long it's taken me to hear God's voice. I still have trouble with it sometimes, and I'm certainly not saying I'll never have a hard time again, but God is showing me all His unbelievable voices, I just have to be open to listening.
I can try drilling all these things into your head, but until you truly experience it for yourself all I can give you are words. But this Love is, outstanding. To say the least. It makes you want to jump up and run to all the people you love, squeeze them in a giant bear hug, and kiss them on the cheek telling them you love them, because Christ loves you throughout eternity. While at the same time you want to hide in a corner and cry the happiest tears that have ever flown from your eyes. The Love my Lover has shown me makes it hard to wait until the moment run to Him in all His glory. Waiting for the moment I can feel the perfect hug..

trying to shake the Christmas blues

My family can't seem to shake off the Christmas spirit. We seem to be prolonging it as much as possible. All day we have been singing Christmas carols, even now as I type my sister is singing jingle bells. We still have our Christmas tree up, we still have the Christmas dishes in the cupboards, and we have Santas all over the counter. I'm not really saying anything because I love Christmas, but I do admit it is kinda getting ridiculous. Then again, it hasn't even been a month yet so we still have time. ;)
Just look at how many times I've said Christmas in this blog.. oh dear. :) Well, I guess all I can do is start getting excited for next year!

good bye dear friend.

As it withers away I start to tear
I'm sorry you must go, my poor dear.
You stood there all day, forever all night
But never once did I begin to fright.
You bring back great memories some old and some new,
You bring us our childhood, the one that blew.
Blew to the back of our minds
only to be found by one of your kinds.
We stare through your bottom seeing never-ending lights

Oh my friend, what a sight!
You start to fall now, one little fraction at a time
And all I can give is this little rhyme.

It was someone's home before it joined mine
and will start again with just a small pine.
In a few days it will be striped away
but oh my will it forever stay.
My thoughts begin to soar
of my Christmas tree forever more.

and just a hint of summer

The other day the girls in my family went shopping and my sister got these flip flops. I know its winter but they were on sale for like $4 so she got them anyway. They're super sweet! they are yellow and have these big-honkin' beads on them. yeah they're pretty cool. (I can't wear them though because they look really funny on me). The weird thing about them is they have this squishy padding on the top, which makes sense for comfort reasons, but it only goes down to where the balls of your feet would be. So your poor little toes are going to get blisters all over them from the plastic because they didn't put the squishy stuff all the way down..OUCH! But I'd still say they're pretty awesome anyway.

let it snow let it snow let it snow

i love winter break! its great..hmm.. :)
it makes me really sad we have to go back to school tomorrow. i don't actually mind school, but it's SO hard to get up in the morning. I think maybe we should start later. But then again if you start later we get home later, and I already don't get home until it's dark out (which is what? 430 now?). So I guess it doesn't really matter. well anyway break was great! My moms side came to our house over Christmas and then a few days after we went to Omaha for one of my cousin's deb. ball. it was really fun because the music was all jazzy and they did this little dance thing, it was great!

Over new years I had some friends over and we watched movies all night (but of course we watched the ball drop too!) at 11 though.. my parents left at like 3 in the morning because my mom took my dad on a surprise trip for his 50th bday. which is actually on the 22nd this month. they got back today around 4 and are pretty tired but they seemed to have a good time anyway.